One of the NP’s in Dr. Gergely’s practice was named Danielle. She joined the practice when I saw her as a teenager, and I saw her a lot during those yar.
In her chart she check “no” on smoking and drinking. Takes dance and music lessons, gets good grades in school.
She writes down that I take an antidepressant. That I live with mom. That I plan to attend college. A classic example of a girl, privileged, spoiled, given everything but deprived of all the right things, still a child on the inside.
I saw her when I was in college and I had just started seeing a guy. I mentioned one day in an appointment, that we were going to travel together. “Oh, do you want some birth control?” she asked, offering to write me a script.
No, I didn’t want birth control. I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend, also knowing that it was wrong to spend time alone together, yet also believing that birth control was wrong.
Did anyone think to look closer, to look deeper. To see that I was just a little girl, trying to grow up too fast? Who lacked the guidance and support she really needed to navigate life and relationships?
No, let’s just write her a script.
"Given everything but deprived of all the right things." And " did anyone look closer to see I was just a little girl." The little girl crying to be seen and no one is there. Just write a script. Says so much.
ReplyDeleteYes, the narrator seeing now that Danielle had a choice in how she responded to the young girl, and she chose the most mechanical response, the most thoughtless.
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